the gift of peace

this verse:
"Peace I bequeath to you, my peace I give you. Peace which the world cannot give; this is my gift to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid." —John 14:27

which i found on amy's blog reminded me of a post i wrote about this time last year...
simply wonderous.
:)


may everyone find true peace this season!

and the invite said to bring pants...

ok so sat. i went to an underpants party...i dare not share the story behind it but lets just say it involves a woman and her underpants and the end result was putting them on her head before realizing that they were what they were. (its a great story i just dont know how much im truly able to divulge) anyhoo the idea was to show up with underpants on your head and that you would not be admitted unless you had them and were wearing them...it turned out that i was the only brave soul who wore them for the entire party...sadly i had to have someone remind me to take them off before i left. (its me go figure!) but i do think that everyone should get to have a party like this one...it was great fun to see what people brought to wear AND i got to play with a one legged goose and crazy glue...or at least i tried until i realized that the crazy glue was all dried...poor goose still has only one good leg! anyway here is a photo of me and the goose and my underpants...and yes they are CLEAN! :P

turkey and all that

lord may i always be able to remember what im thankful for, may i not take my friends and family for granted and may i always be able to find the joy and happiness even at the darkest points. May i always remember your grace and your love for me as well as everyone else. and lord may i always keep seeking you, let my eyes always look to you for hope and inspiration and may i feel courageous enough to go when you call. lord remind us all that we HAVE been blessed and still are blessed. in your holy name
amen.


hope all yalls turkey is as good as mine was!
blessings!
-m
:)

as time stood still...

that is kind of how ive been feeling lately...as if time has just stopped for a while and im just still going on about my daily life not really aware yet that everything else has stopped...god has been trying to get me to reflect on my astronomical journey that has been this last year but something in me just doesnt want to stop and face it. part of me doesnt want to think about how miserable i was just a year ago or how hopeless i felt 12 measley months ago. i think partially because a part of me still wonders if i will end up back there again...i know that is just a venomous thought process but i think to some extent its still so new there are times it feels as though it could get ripped away at any second. ive come so far but still have so far to go. i now have hope and more peace than i ever thought possible but im still an emotional stressball that can freakout and cry with the best of 'em. i still have a really really hard time telling people how i truly feel about the important stuff and im still scared stupid about my potential. how do you put the past behind you and truly move forward? how do you claim your potential while staying humble? is that even an option? i feel like the more i try to get to who i am the more questions i get and the fewer answers there are. i know im changing because i feel all of my lines blurring (which typically seems to happen right before i grow/change) but this sense of blurring just seems to increase with no end in sight...and its starting to really unsettle me when i actually stop and take notice of it. lately it seems like i only get fleeting moments of truly feeling like myself and the rest of the time is just spent in limbo...well im tired of limbo...i may be flexible but everyone has thier breaking point. how do you continue to move forward if you dont even know who you are anymore? i know who ive been, i know who i wish i could be but where am i? where is the authentic me and how do i keep her out in the open?

ok im tired need to sleep a little...yeah yeah yeah i know its crazy late...but if you know me at all you know that this is what happens when i start really analyzing things. i promise ill get some sleep and take care of myself...i just can keep running from this...this needs to be dealt with.

that groove down in my soul

ok there is something about good music and how it just hits down to the core of you. and man i love that! i love feeling that beat in my chest and having it just resonate. LOVE IT! and i love stores that are amazing and just blow your mind with how much neat stuff they've got...(check out the saltmine at oak park mall!) and i love it when sales people hit a home run with stuff...thanks mister redwine! yay! i also love the fact that today FINALLY the people at UPS left my package at my door instead of making me have to go all the way to the headquarters to pick it up...YAY! YAY! YAY!

ok and the random thought of the day sparked by some of the clothing options out there right now...i think it would be hilarious to open a store called ...get ready for it... called:

You-da-HO

and it would offer street and loungewear fashions

yeah wuddya think about that!

hahaha....ok im sorry i thought it was really funny. i mean who exactly would shop at a store called you-da-ho? hee hee hee. k im done.

check this out!!!!

ok so yes im doing well and blah blah blah but go check this blog out! a friend of mine from the internship this summer has started blogging and she has already caused me to re-evaluate myself and that is always a trip.

:)

so go! go now! go check THIS out!

:D

all that and a bag of chips...

not much to share right now...life has calmed slightly and im loving it! but there's still plenty of semester left and plenty of have-to's need-to's and want-to's...so im off and running again...or at least am trying to. ok so two things to go do with me...number one...go praise jesus cause he is amazing and continues to do amazing and wonderful things...and two...go say something nice to someone else (and here's the kicker...MEAN IT!)
k happy day to you.
-m
:)

update

well the finantial aid fairy decided to come visit me finally... WHOO HOO! take a load off! ok so besides that good news i am still unfortunately sick, better (thanks to the meds the dr. gave me) but im still sick. had a great time last night er...scratch that this morning at the 24 hr. prayer event for heartland's go. campagin it was awesome i just wish i could have stayed longer (ended up leaving cause i couldnt stop coughing). anyhoo thats about it for now. ill write more when ive got something interesting.

side note: some of the best people watching ive had in a long time...halloween night at chipolte...people can get pretty creative as well as crazy when free food is involved...just ask aaron and his tinfoil snake. :)