im back in the saddle again...

so its 3 am...almost 3:30am and i need to get to bed but felt the need to dust off this blog and fire it up again. after spending time to erase all the blue pill comments that have been posted i felt a need to not only beef-up security but started to read and felt a little nostalgic. this blog documented a crazy point of life for me...not unlike the one im currently in...and so...well we shall see how long this lasts.

things that have changed since the last time i blogged...

i graduated college freakin finally

i realized that i am called to go overseas to africa and maybe some other places too

i have learned oodles more about God, Jesus, and myself

God really put me to the test of if i would go to the ends of the earth for Him...i now live with my parents in the lou...flash from the past and has caused and is causing me to relive a lot that i had hoped would remain lost and forgotten about

i am amazed at how perfect Gods timing is as well as His amazing ability to redeem and restore and salvage things that have been lost and tried to be forgotten

im sure there is more but thats a taste...

oh and my bun calib "fatman" ...he can now officially be called the toeless wonder cause he like my first bun boo boo, has a left back paw that now only has 3 toes...instead of the usual 4. and let me just say that bunny toe amputations...well they dont come cheap! bah!



themes that God is impressing upon me right now:

trust Him trust Him trust Him

His timing is perfect

He is a jealous God and when anything starts to really divide my heart and or my attention...He very quickly will call me back so that the only thing i am truly clinging to is Him

GRACE

PATIENCE

PERSERVERANCE (which by the way i am beginning to think must be my middle name)

its joy in the little things that allow you to handle the big things and the not so pretty things and the down right U-GuLY things, joy is what brings us back to hope and hope is what brings us back to faith (inpart taken from a conversation with a really wise woman...you know the type...super profound but doesnt see herself in any way as being profound...man i love people like that! lady i hope you know who you are you are loved and are truly a joy!)

renewal, rebuilding, and building (aka soaking up as much as i can with the understanding that this is preparation for all that God has for me to do...both here and now and beyond)



well its super late. i will now be sleeping in super late and thus making my mom worry more by not waking with her when the sun rises. oh how she worries...i pray that she can get a break from the worries...i pray she can find some peace...cause i cant imagine having to live life worrying that much about everything and everyone. it just makes me tired and heartsick just thinking about it.

peace...my peace i give to you...not of that which the world gives...but mine which is an everlasting peace

not a direct quote but i think its a paraphrase or at least how my heart remembers and responds to it...i think its in john. but im ok with not really knowing right now and leaving that for another time, another day.

peace and blessings

-me
:)