the bitter cold

ok so when i was younger i always thought it would be cool to have a twin that i could have a kinetic connection with, you know that esp third eye kind of stuff...but i never really thought it would be attainable...however god seems to be a lot larger at times than i can really understand. recently ive had a couple different instances where ive felt a connection with people that i know they dont really feel it but i guess the easiest way to explain it is that i end up with a spiritual bridge between us...the first time this happened was at 61 at heartland, i had remembered dreaming a specific point of what happened that evening (though i had dreamed it months beforehand), two days later it happened again and instead of feeling immense peace and calming like the first time it was startling and hard to explain...it basically struck me dumb for a moment, tonight however was too much for me to grasp...while in church and for most of the evening i was chill-to-the-bone cold (sitting in the blue chairs at heartland i was wearing a long sleeved shirt, my fleece jacket zipped up, my glittens with my hands tucked into the sleeves of my jacket, i stole amy's hat and seans fleece coat and couldnt get warm...i was shivering) at a couple different points i warmed up slightly...only to end up shivering again...i later found out that one of my friends had been outside for almost the entire duration of me being cold...and somehow i just knew it was that, for whatever reason that was why i was cold too...i cant even fully describe it or explain it...but there was that bridge again, and as near as i can tell its a one sided kind of thing, i dont think they noticed it. so what direction is this supposed to take me? what is this for and can i maybe not share cold anymore...i mean MAN, im FREEEEEEEZing! and i hate being cold. :( i can only think of like two other times ive felt my bones get cold to the point of not being able to retain any heat and so instead of shaking it it just stays and sits. crazy!

ok so enough of making myself out to be even weirder than i am already...so tonight even through this crazyiness i still managed to be me...somehow while in best buy amy and i managed to not only slam into each other but smacked heads while doing so...dont ask cause i dont know all i really know was that after we smacked we stood embracing each other in a hug while laughing and standing right in front of a bewildered store clerk...it was priceless. and later in the evening while trying hard to explain my cold and my ability to i guess bridge with people i managed to stammer that it kinda made me "fleeking frip out"...yeah...that was a classic michelle stammer statement if ever there was a better one. :D i know god gave me a toungue to talk but man it really gets in my way! bleah. ooh yeah and hey ..."bananas". >:D tee hee